Defying Normal

smokeinsomnia:

It’s weird. Today started out blah, I woke up from a nightmare, and shit was just weighing on me. Like, it was one of those days where you wake up, and you feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders. I went to school, got stressed as hell, was incredibly tired, horrible headache, had to take a quiz and do a timed writing thing, and I was ready to punch anyone that even accidentally touched me.

Now, a few hours later, I’m smiling. I’m relaxed, and I’m happy. It’s funny how things that used to make me want to drink or get high or just freak the fuck out make me smile and laugh. I don’t think I can even put into words what she’s done for me. Just the minute I spent with her before I got on my bus, just hugging her and kissing her, it was insane. She just made me happy through the smallest of things. 

I am happy. I have changed. And I’m the person I’ve wanted to be. My past doesn’t control me anymore. My life is my own, and I chose who I share it with. All the little things that used to flare up in my mind; the doubts, the fear, the insecurities, they’re gone. Someone who spent two years with me gave me those. Someone who spent just over two months with me took all of those. 

I love her. I love myself. And I’m honestly happy to be alive.

I believe this is one of the most adorable, honest things I’ve ever read from a guy about a girl on Tumblr, or ever. I hope one day my guy can think of me the same

(Source: coffeelaced-intoxicating)